Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Happy Birthday To You Both....


Well I am late blogging about this, but on January 28th we celebrated Margo's first birthday! Jeremy had to work and Carter went to MDO. I took Margo to The Wonderplace and then out to lunch with her Papaw and Nanny Opal. She was so big and had so much fun! Her little attitude has started to show and it is adorably bad. When the dogs come into Margo's room while we are playing and get in our way I say loudly, "Out!" So, while we were playing with a toy at The Wonderplace another toddler came over and started to play with Margo. Margo then started shaking her finger at this sweet little girl and yelling, "Ou, Ou!" OMG, it is a good thing that they didn't understand her at all. The Mom said, "Oh look she is so cute honey, she is talking to you." Um, no. She was yelling at your kid. Oh well, she is so cute. Who cares right?



This was a bittersweet day. I was so happy to be celebrating my daughters birthday. I am so grateful for her and her health, I mean I could not ask for more in my children. Everytime she did something cute I wanted to turn and show someone or share that moment. With Jerm working that day it was sort of lonely. I know that my Mom would have been there and that is hard to forget on such a happy day. Margo got a toy giraffe in the store there and then she ate like a big girl at lunch. When we left we picked up Carter and then Margo slept for along time! It was a great day and I am so glad that I got to share it with her.



Fast foward to February the 20th. We were so busy this day! We were getting ready to take Carter to try a Karate class and he was so excited that he had a hard time following directions. Ironic huh, Karate and not following directions? While getting him ready I got a little sad. It was on this day a year ago that we lost my Mom to Cancer. Again, I was so sad to not share this moment with her and it got to me. Carter asked what was wrong. I am usually very honest with him about this subject because I want him to see emotions in a healthy way. I told him I was sad and why and then I told him that I was happy for him and happy for Mimi because it was her first birthday in heaven. I told him how much fun she was probably having watching him. Karate went well except for someone let their raging maniac of a toddler in there! Who would do that? Oh wait, I DID! Margo was crazy. Screaming, throwing goldfish, the whole nine yards. I wanted to throw her little butt out there and let her learn some self discipline. Carter did great and of course wants to go back.



Then we went home for a little Margo nap and lunch. After that, off to a birthday party at JumpZone. On the way there Carter randomly yelled out, "Daddy! Did you know it is Mimi's heaven birthday!!!!" I love these moments, because even though it makes me sad I cannot help but to smile. He keeps me grounded and I don't know what I would do without that boy. The birthday party was fun and Carter played so hard! Note to self, Margo is not a fan of the bounce houses right now. Next, off to Cabot for Jack's basketball game. Carter liked it and flirted with Grayson's friend and ate some popcorn. Margo sat still suprisingly and liked all the loud whistles. Jack's team did not win the game and I don't know who was more upset, him or my brother.



Dear Margo and Mom,



I had so much fun with you during your birthday day Margo Jane. You are so beautiful and wonderful and I just want to soak you up. I wish I had more time in the day to just sit and watch you be you. You are so independent when you play but you always want to come back and snuggle with your Mommy! You are a joy to be around and I am so excited to watch you grow up. Grow up slowly though. I am so sorry that your Mimi couldn't be there, but know that she sees everything that you do. When I look at you I am overjoyed because I know how much your Mimi loves you and loves to watch you. She is so proud of you and so am I.



I miss you everyday Mom. Thank you so much for leading by example on how to be a parent. I thought that your heaven birthday would be much harder to make it through. During those times I really do feel your prescence and I know exactly what you would say to help me through it. You are truly awesome and I love you.



Happy birthday to you both.



Love,

Me