This past Monday Carter and I went to see a behavioral specialist. Now, I have needed to see a behavioral specialilst for quite some time but it is too late for me. This was for Carter. I know what you are thinking for those of you that know my baby. That sweet angel? He is not bad, he just has some peculiar behaviors and a couple of months ago we were having some pretty profound behavior problems. Now on a scale of 1 to 10 someone else would probably rate those problems as a 4 or 5. I on the other hand would rate them as a 7 or 8. We went to see his pediatrician and she referred us to this specialist.
As the saying goes, it is not the machine it is the operator. That would probably hold true to this situation. Most of the issue is just me not knowing how to handle Carter sometimes. He is so unique and awesome that sometimes I just don't know what to do with him. His interest is animals of every kind. If you ask him to tell you his ABC's you are not going to get but about A through C. If you ask him about animals he can go on for days. If he asks you about an animal he wants to know the specific detailed name for that animal. You just can't say it is a lizard. Not good enough.
To sum it up, I know there is nothing wrong with my child. I think he is so wonderfuly unique and smart that I worry about keeping up with him. He can be a bit OCD at times, but that is okay. Please don't ever give him an animal, superhero, or figurine that cannot stand up perfectly on its legs. This is very frustrating for him which turns very frustrating for his Mommy. At the end of the appointment the doctor said Carter was a very precocious child and that he would probably always be the square peg that the world would try and fit into a round hole.
To my sweet Carter,
I love your squareness. I adore it and think you are the most creative and funny kid that I know. Sometimes in this world you will have to be round and that is okay. I will do my best to nuture and always appreciate you being a square peg. Stay true to yourself and people will love you for that. You still have to behave in school and follow directions. But when it is time to let loose and be creative remember you are a square peg! I love you so very much.
Mommy
